100th post!: How to get a flat stomach quickly!

I figured since this is the 100th post I need to make it special and something interesting so I thought what is more exciting than having a fucking flat stomach? So here we go:

Core exercises:

Planking
Crunches
Sit ups

Cardio exercises:

Jogging in place 

Jumping Jacks 

Alternating between jogging in place and jumping jacks for 30 minutes

Swimming

Running

Jogging

Step-aerobics (using your bed or anything equally high up)

You need to do a combination of Cardio and core!!

Meal plan:

Sunday: Fast

Monday: 100 calories

Tuesday: 200 calories

Wednesday: 100 calories

Thursday: 300 calories

Friday: Fast 

Saturday: Fast

Follow this meal plan for 3 weeks.

When you stop this meal plan you need to be on a liquid diet (soups, coffee, water, juice)

You will gain super fast if you aren't careful or if you fuck up.

Best motivation:

Before and after thinspo:

**WEIGH YOURSELF CONSTANTLY**

Best daily tips:

Stay warm! 

You burn more calories when you are cold but if you are cold you will be more tempted to eat

Constantly brush your teeth

Not too much, but when you wake up, before bed, and in the middle of the day

Take 1 shot (1 tbsp.) of Apple Cider Vinegar 

This will suppress your appetite

Take a shower every day

You will lose weight if it is a cold shower, shed more skin if it is a hot shower, also helps hunger pains

Do not think of it as a fast or diet

Seriously, you need to convince yourself that you are just not hungry/too lazy to eat/cutting calorie intake. 

ARGHH!!! I hate myself!!

I fucking gained! My two stupid binges fucking cost me, and now I am 145 AGAIN! I hate this... I cannot freaking believe I let this happen...Well guess what? It will not happen again, I vow right here and now I will never see this number or any number above it ever again. 13 pounds, Jesus fucking Christ. 

Apple cider vinegar

Suppression
Apple cider vinegar is the by-product of fermented apples. Bacteria and yeast break down the sugars from the apples which turn it into alcohol. Then after a period of time, it turns into vinegar. This is the fermentation stage. One of the ways it helps you lose weight is by suppressing the appetite. It has a substance in it called pectin - this is a fiber. When apple cider vinegar is consumed before a meal with water, it makes you feel a little bit fuller causing you to eat less calories.

Acetic Acid
Your body's metabolism determines how many calories you burn for all of your daily activities. The higher your metabolism, the more calories you will burn. Apple cider vinegar has a substance called acetic acid which helps release iron in foods. Iron carries hemoglobin which adheres to oxygen. This high utilization of oxygen leads to a high expenditure of energy which in turn raises metabolism.


Breakdown
When your body is at rest, the body releases growth hormones to keep you energized. The building block of growth hormones is protein. Apple cider vinegar is instrumental in breaking down protein in the body. This higher breakdown of protein leads to elevated growth hormone release. This then contributes to a higher metabolism.


Flsuhed Out
Sodium is a major contributor to water retention in the body. This increased water causes high blood pressure and weight gain. Apple cider vinegar has a good amount of potassium in it which helps flush excess sodium form the body. Less sodium means less water, and less water leads to less weight.

4/30/12

...I can't even. My friend, my proana buddy might be admitted to the hospital and I am so worried, I don't want her to go...it could be months to years before we talk again depending on when she gets out. I just... She does not want to recover why can't everyone just leave us alone and let us fucking STARVE...it just is not fair...

Anyways:

It is 7pm and all I have had was less than 1/2 a cup of broccoli, 4 sticks of celery and 7 croutons (I'm addicted to those). 

Estimating here it is probably between 50-150 calories total

(I dipped the veggies in Caesar dressing)

I also had a shot of organic apple cider vinegar to help me burn fat.

My theory is it helps break up fat cells not so much it burns calories.

APPLE CIDER VINEGAR SUPPRESSES APPETITE

Several studies done by Sweden's Lund University have shown vinegar to be effective in reducing appetite. The two studies performed by Dr. Elin Ostman showed those subjects who took vinegar either before or during meals showed a lower increase in insulin and glucose after eating than expected. One study also showed that subjects were less hungry shortly after eating if they had taken vinegar before the meal.

Food Log

So far today (it being 6pm now) all I've had was

Oatmeal - 150 calories.

I don't feel bad about that (even though that is a hell of a lot of calories) because it filled me up, it is pure fiber, and it tasted great even without butter. 

I will update this post later depending on if I eat again. We'll see.
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So my parents are going to the buffet and are bringing me one of those spicy guacamole chicken sandwiches from Wendys. I wish I could have turned the offer down... Maybe I can half it twice and eat it in fourths but I know I'll eat the whole thing like the fat ass I am but it is worth a shot right? Right. 
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OK so I called and told my dad not to get me anything, instead I had:

Tuna 80 calories
Mayonnaise 20 calories
dill pickle relish 0 calories
croutons 20 calories

I had this after 2 small shots of organic apple cider vinegar 

You know I really wonder...

Sometimes, like now...I want to recover. I want to be normal and eat, I want to love food again, to not worry about weight or calories. But then, also like now, I want nothing more than to starve and be beautiful. No matter the cost.

I wish that my eating disorder affected my family, I wish that my parents were worried for me. But no, it was almost too easy to convince my mother that I am only fasting for the health benefits. It is almost too easy to skip days, to not eat, to workout for hours on in, it is just too easy. Because in her mind eating disorder does not exist, especially with me. I am "too fat" for an eating disorder apparently, I "eat too much" to have an eating disorder. What does it fucking take to get my mom to care about me? Fucking Christ... OK sorry I am ranting and most of that was just stupid, of course I don't want my mom to know I have anorexia, of course I am not doing this to get my mother's attention. She is not that important to me, god. I just...wish...

It is 2:04 AM right now. My mouth is very dry, like sand paper almost. I am having small but powerful urges to eat and snack. No specific cravings, thank god, and not really wanting to eat or hungry it is mainly boredom. So I am lucky...

I got this off of "Beyond the Looking Glass" blog. 

Tempted to eat, tempted to eat!

Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my mother effing goodness!! I should watch a movie or something, anything! Because everything sounds so good, my mind is running through a list of foods that are OK to eat, that wouldn't hurt me too bad if I cheated and ate them! Popcorn, oatmeal, soy beans, lean cut white meat chicken. YUMMMM!! Ugh spraying cologne and perfume every 5 seconds it is making me sick, chugging down this water (oh em gee my nose burns!!)  and trying to stay preoccupied, thus the pointless rant blog post! Maybe sitting with my mom and watching TV? But the kitchen is right there... DAMMIT! I hate food! I hate it I hate it I HATE it!! It will be the death of me I swear oh please oh please body do not fail me!!

Mother FUUU-

So why am I posting? Because I want to EAT! Because the fat bitch inside of me, the girl who wants to keep me miserable and FAT, wants me to fucking eat. Not eat, that is humane, she wants me to binge if you can even call it that, there is not a food in the world you could name that I don't want to shove in my face right now! UGH and I have probably peed 7 fucking times in the past hour no exaggeration or joking, I am serious. I am so sick of going to the bathroom and feeling nauseated from drinking more and more water. Fuck! I am just so sick and tired of it, and I am freezing but I am too scared to leave my room to get my laundry, and to turn air up because if I do I will convince myself just to look at the food, then chew and spit, and then have some, and some more, and some more, and some fucking more!! HELP ME!!! 

What I think about

75% - How to avoid eating, and going over the meal plans for the next few days in my head

11% - I should be exercising

8% - How many calories I have consumed and burned 

5% - My best friend

1% - family

These are always on my mind...Always...

The legs....

My body and appearance...

The hipbones... 

What I ate, What I will eat, How mad I'll be once I binge, don't binge, don't binge, don't binge!

 What can I eat? So hungry... Is this too fattening? Will this make me gain? Will this affect weight loss? I wonder if this would be OK to eat...

 My ideal body, and how good I will look!!

THE COLLAR BONES!!!<3

So beautiful....

This is ALL I think about, school, family, friends, guys all that used to be important to me? Never on my mind. Ever. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. I want to be thin and nothing else. I want to starve and nothing else. THIN IS PERFECTION DAMMIT!

Best motivation out there~

Make small booklets, get flash cards, whatever size ( I got rather large ones ) and cut them in half ( not all if you don't want, but you will need quite a few) 

I have 5 booklets because you can only staple so many together so how many you have really depends on how much you do and add to it. 

My first booklet consists of:

Advice, tips, and tricks:

• "Do not eat after or during fast, you will binge, binge = guilt, punishment."
• "If you start making excuses / or trying to talk yourself into eating distract yourself at all costs" (then lists activities)
• The next few cards are common excuses I use that I always give in to, then below each excuse I wrote why I should not give up and what usually happens when I believe my excuses ("I'll only eat this, besides it is healthy I will go right back to fasting after")
• Schedule, I have the times I usually binge, The times I usually get bored, The times I usually get hungry / lazy. 
• Reasons I can't binge
• The next few are just quotes such as "If you are too embarrassed to even look at your stomach, you have no business eating bitch!"
• The next one has my goal weight, and current weight and how much time I have left to get there (less than 30 days)
• The last card is punishments, I take stuff away from myself, how long I take it away depends on how bad the binge was and how hard I worked to fix it. It lists things I actually enjoy and would have a hard time coping without, this way I don't cheat myself.
• Then on the back it has my GW, and CW and below it the difference between the two (subtract GW from CW)

The next 2 booklets are basically just quotes and thinspirational sayings. I also have a red flag list in there which lists things that commonly cause me to gain, fail or cheat:

• Home cooked meals
• Pizza
• Staying in the kitchen or living room too long
• Watching/Seeing/hearing about/talking about food too much (this means do not watch FOOD channels, do not stay in kitchen and stare at food, do not watch others eat or talk about what someone else or what you ate that day.

The next 2 booklets are tricks and things to think about/do when I fail, want to cheat etc. 

Make some for yourself and keep them with you always, always, always. Read them when you wake up and when you are tempted or craving. Sometimes (most of the time) this works better than looking at pictures or watching thinspo videos because it is your own stuff.

ALSO :::::::::

Take a picture of yourself and draw where you want to tone/lose. Do this every single week!

Call yourself on your own bullshit

• NUMBER ONE: If you are trying to fast, do not under any circumstances try to reward yourself after with a treat, do not eat anything you aren't supposed to during, before, or after. If it is a water/coffee/juice/liquid no food fast then do NOT be fucking stupid and eat. Keep water bottles in your room if you must but stay AWAY from the kitchen. 

• NUMBER TWO: Your number one warning signs are if you begin to make excuses to eat, cheat, or end your fast early or if you try to talk yourself into eating. **ANYTHING SIMILAR IS A WARNING.** What do you do? Well:

1. avoid the kitchen / food
2. drink tons of *recommended*water*recommended*  (or juice/coffee whatever your fast allows)
3. Watch tons of thinspo videos on YouTube, look at tons of thinspo pictures online
4. Go to a mirror lift up your shirt and stare at your stomach for at LEAST 5 minutes (don't you dare look away!) Then look at your thighs, arms and butt, pinch and prod your face and body until you are so disgusted food is the last thing on your mind.
5. Sit down, really, really think hard, try to remember the after-binge feeling once the fullness sets in, remember how shitty you feel, how all you want to do is stay up all night trying to work it off, remember how bad you want to punish yourself. Is that what you want? 
6. Just remember, if you eat you WILL feel like shit. Is a few moments of satisfaction worth the hours and hours of hell you will give yourself afterwards?

NUMBER THREE: "I will only eat this, besides it is healthy" for fucks sake, I cannot tell you how many times I have done this, I do this during ever fast/diet, I do this nearly anytime I cut more food out of my diet. YOU.WILL.BINGE. Do not eat it, put the food back/down and walk away right then. 

1. Avoid the kitchen/food
2. If you feel a binge coming, take a bath/shower, spend a lot of time on washing your hair and body, spend at least 30-45 minutes shaving your legs/arms and really pamper yourself. 
3. Shut your doors and oil up the knobs (you can just use lotion), spend a long time painting / filing your nails to perfection, can't leave unless you want to mess them up really bad.
4. blast music, turn on the TV, try to focus on the TV and the music it will distract you PERFECTLY!

NUMBER FOUR: Make a schedule. 

What I mean by this is, when I fast I always binge/cheat between 9pm and 3am (I sleep till 3pm and stay up all night from insomnia to explain the weird hours), so between the hours of 9 and 3 I am doing everything within my power to keep my mind and hands occupied, keeping my stomach filled with water and trying my best to keep as much thinspiration around as possible. Do you understand? You really need to pay attention to stuff like this so that you can MAKE A PLAN so that it will never happen again, stop the binge/starve/fast/binge/binge/starve/fast/binge cycle once and for all!

If you haven't seen this before (picture below) then read it, very, very helpful!! <3

Only posting this because..

Harlo guys! I am only really posting this because I am fasting, and I don't want the temptation of eating to get any worse than what it already is and so therefore I am trying my best to distract myself. I actually washed my face last night with a cleanser I haven't used before (I have used the cream for it but not liquid) and woke up this morning with a swollen left eye, puffy under eyes, red itchy blotches all over my freaking face and back of neck. This sucks. The only good thing that comes out of it is, it is keeping my mind off of food! Other than that, I hate life and just wish I could rip my face off. 

ANYWAYS ONTO FASTING!!

I am going to put more effort into my thinspiration and try to make it more artistic and my style, so here we go, hope you like it:

~I just like thinspiration more when you cannot see the person's face~

Important for every fast

God, drink as much water as possible, do not drink it up all at once to try and make up for not drinking all day, it does not work. I promise water will help with the hunger and all that, being tasteless it will fire up cravings, and cravings will be hell but that is what this is! Control, having control over your own body and not letting some...thing (food) control it for you. I want a new day right now, a fresh start, I just need a clean slate to go on, I need the hunger, I crave it and the hunger pain! I want it so bad it is not even funny. 

It is almost like...I measure my worth not only by my weight but by how empty I am and feel. In an hour or so, after the water I have just downed has settled, I will immediately jump into vigorous aerobic activities (jumping jacks, step aerobics) Then I while I rest so my heart rate can slow down a bit I will use weights and do hip extensions and work on my arms, while I let my muscles relax, I will do crunches and sit ups and plank. Then I will start all over from the top, and continue this way all night like I have done for the past fucking WEEK. I want control and until I have complete and utter control over my body I will continue this! I will have the perfect body and soul, burn calories burn!!

More Thinspiration Quotes

"Don't give up what you want most, for what you want at the moment"


"If you really want something you will find a way..

If you don't you will find an excuse"

"Have some respect for yourself, you useless pig"

"Those who skip dinner always end up thinner"

"Don't wish for it, work for it"

"I don't deserve to eat today"

"I_Am_NOT_Hungry"

"The hunger and pain is my stomach getting smaller"

"I only feel pretty when I feel empty"

"cigarette sells would drop overnight if the label said "Warning: contains fat"

"Did you enjoy that moment of freedom, bitch? It will never happen again"

"I hope that binge was worth it, because I am going to put you through hell when it is time to work out again"

"The answer to a new slimmer you, is right beneath your nose...

Stop shoveling food into your mouth, you greedy fuck."

Pizza

Dominos, how you tempt me so

No, I most certainly do not want a 150 calorie per slice piece of pizza, even if it does have spinach and feta cheese as toppings, even if it does smell really good. I refuse to throw all my hard work down the drain for a few seconds of pleasure in which will ultimately lead to me feeling guilty, fat and disgusting and thus me awake all night once more to work off the damage in which has been done. So no I say, I do not want a slice of your fattening pizza!

Oh because I know, pizza, what you have in store for me! Yes, you will only make me fat and bitter, you will only make me binge and hate myself more! You are truly evil to do that! To do this to my body:

Well I don't want to look like that! I would much rather starve and turn the other way so that one day I will reach my goal weight and look like this:

So no, I do not want a slice of pizza.

Cravings, and curbing that appetite!

All right, so I found out that by drinking crystal light (energy, peach mango flavour) you can not only stop hunger, but also cravings when water fasting. Though you really are not supposed to do this on water fasts, it is better to do this than just completely fuck up and eat. It is only 5 calories and gives you energy boost to work out longer, one packet per water bottle and lasts you like all day! I promise if you have not tried it you will love it and not regret it at all! Those 5 calories are so worth it because they save you from the potential hundreds. 

Drink up!!

No more mess ups: Fasting

I keep fudging up, but no more, I will be fasting 22 days (added a day for punishment) and I will post every time I need to as when I post, I lose all desire to eat or binge or cheat or what ever, it helps me and so I do not care if people actually read these particular posts but it does not matter they are not particularly for you but for myself, I fudged up tonight and now I feel sicker than sick, 2 biscuits, 1 can of tuna, 1 balance bar, half a bottle of crystal light water, spaghetti noodles with peanut sauce and Parmesan cheese on top---Yeah a lot and I deserve the sickness and pain, I completely fucked up and I don't know what happened... No I will tell you what happened I turned the gosh damn lights out because when it is dark I don't have to see myself or what I am eating and therefore in my mind that makes it OK, makes it like the calories won't effect me..but they still exist and they still effect me...no use worrying over it now, I will be fasting and if I fail... I am deleting this blog, deleting my profile on ever ProAna site, and leaving myself at Ana's mercy as I let myself starve. 

Stop EATING

I feel like such a disgusting fat bitch when I eat I am sick of it. 

QUOTES AND THINGS TO SAY ALOUD

• Food makes you fat, fat makes you ugly so don't eat.
• If I eat anything, I'll eat everything, so I eat nothing
• Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
• Fat lasts longer than flavour
• A second on the lips, a lifetime on the hips
• Hunger pains are fat leaving the body
• Not eating light makes your clothes too tight
• Every time you say no to food you say yes to thin
• If you dream it, you can do it
• Tell yourself: this is forever. I will do whatever it takes.I want to be thin more than anything, even food.
• Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better
• Don't give up your ultimate goal for something you want at the moment
• You only fail if you stop trying
• The difference between want and need is self control
•  This is what I want...No one can stop me on my Quest for Perfection. You think you know but you have no idea...This is the journal of the newest Ana.
• Thinner is a winner
• If I skip dinner I'll be thinner
• Don't eat. If you want to see food, look in the mirror at your thighs.
• The greasy fry, it does not lie, the truth is written on your thigh.
• Nobody ever got ahead by sitting on their ass
• Thin is always in. Those who say otherwise are usually fat, aren't they?
• Inner beauty is for fat people
• Thin has a taste all its own
• A pleasure on the lips adds pounds to the hips
• I'm not there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday.
• Food is temptation, once you overcome temptation, you can do anything.
• You cannot taste perfection, you can feel it.
• An imperfect body reflects an imperfect soul.
• It's always better to fade into nothingness than to have a cheeseburger clog your artery.

~I don't care if it hurts,

I want control,

I want a perfect body,

I want a perfect soul.

Reverse Thinspo

Thinspiration is much more effective if it is realistic, seeing a 300 lb woman will not scare most people as they know you will not gain 200+ over night. So my theory is by using real girls between 130-200 pounds as reverse thinspo, more Anas will be able to stay motivated. It is much worse seeing reverse thinspo that looks like you instead of a whale isn't it? Yes. Here we go:

So if you want the best thinspiration motivation, you need to use pictures that will make you jealous, and then some that will scare you because you know one or two slip ups alone could land you in the same god damn spot.

I want you to *work* for it!

TEST YOUR COMMITMENT TO THIN

0% committed - sit reading and do nothing

15%  committed - flex your abs for 5 seconds

30% committed - ten jumping jacks

50% committed - ten sit ups and 5 leg lifts

75% committed - 20 sit ups, 5 leg lifts, and 20 second jog in place

100% committed - 1 minute wall sit, 25 sit ups, 10 leg lifts, 45 second jog in place

Commitment is when you give up this:

For this:

So you don't turn into this:

Because you would much rather be this:

So suck it up bitch and quit complaining

Ana makes this look like a buffet 

So you can look like a Goddess