Blargh!! I still do not have a scale and am very pissed off about having only measuring tape as my only way to see if I am getting smaller! OK, so I fucked up!! I had went all day without eating because I had burger king Sunday night, yes I am a failure I know! I am freezing cold, I have a stomach ache and I am tired but I can't sleep because I just ate hot dip to speed metabolism a bit. I have had roughly 280 calories today... So ashamed I am supposed to be fasting apart from nutrition bars! Don't have the motivation or endurance to work out tonight or today...I will just wait a while until I am comfortable again and distressed maybe then I'll be warm again.. You know to be perfectly honest I wish my mom would figure out what is going on... I do not have to worry about hiding my eating habits I am always alone and my parents don't care enough to look into it, my siblings think I am just trying to lose weight and are congratulating me telling me how PROUD they are of me... I just...I need someone to know how alone I feel, how scared I am and that tears are filling my eyes...I can't stand it!!
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