111.4 pounds
I am so excited! I'm already in the Halloween spirit, which is great for me because last year, for some terrible reason, I couldn't get in the mood.. and it didn't even feel like Fall let alone October/Halloween until the day of and even then, I did nothing for the holiday so I was really upset when it was over - this year is different! I am going to prepare a calendar for daily things I'd like to do such as like...
buying a costume, carving a pumpkin, baking pumpkin seeds, making "scary" treats mm... decorating, and of course I will have a halloween movie for every day of the month (movie marathons on the days that I don't have an activity planned)
I'm going all out this year lol, I really, desperately need something good..
My dog passed away recently, the absolute love of my life and it has torn me up inside. I wear his dog tag and still carry his ashes with me anytime I go out of town and I leave them above my bed when I sleep... It's killing me to be here without him - he was the only thing in this world I really loved aside from one of my other dogs, she is still with me but even she can't fill that void.
My mom and I also finally left my father - finally got the proof after all these years that he is a perverted and sick bastard; no details. I don't really want to talk about it. Considering I am going to group and individual therapy for my eating disorder treatment every week, I talk about those horrible things enough.
This is about HAPPINESS.
OCTOBER.
HALLOWEEN.
It's coming, y'all.
Oh.. right, I forgot, I am in treatment for my eating disorder now, and was officially diagnosed with Anorexia Binge-Purge Subtype. I am not sure if I already told y'all that, if not then there you go. Official diagnosis for all the snobs who have been giving me grief since day 1 that I created this blog for my ED
