Master Cleanse

I am starting this on 3, Feb. with another girl, if you would like to join let me know, we are going to do a group text so you must be in the US, thanks!!

If you have not heard of this then...Seriously do you even diet?

Okay so basically you prep your body for 3 days before the cleanse:

Day 1: 

eliminate processed foods and meat (basically stick to vegetables and fruit

Day 2: 

Begin juicing the fruits/vegetables  

Day 3: 

Orange juice only

The Master Cleanse: 

• 2 tbsp. Pure Maple Syrup (do NOT eat the syrup by itself)
• 2 tbsp. Fresh Lemon Juice (preferably buy bag of lemons, less expensive + better for results) 
• 1/10 tsp. Cayenne Pepper Powder (or as much as you can stand)
• 8 ounces of Pure Water

Once made: Drink immediately after or within 5-10 minutes, this is to prevent it from seeping and becoming too spicy to drink (caused by cayenne powder).

Drink Whenever Hungry/light headed 

 Try to drink 6-12 glasses a day

4-8 glasses a day for maximized weight loss* 

*Do not go under 4 glasses a day, you will not lose more weight

EASING OUT PREPARATION

Day 1:                                                                                                Orange Juice

Day 2:

Juicing, Blending, Soups, Broths

Day 3:

Organics (fruits, vegetables)

Anywho, the whole point of this post was to say me and my bestest Ana buddy are doing it together! I am excited! 

WEIGHT LOSS EXPECTATIONS

- Expect to lose 2 pounds a day, if you are overweight / have lots of weight you need to lose, prepare to watch the fat melt away! By the end of the 10 days you can expect to have lost 14-15 pounds

 (this varies person to person and how much you drank each day)

!!!!WARNING!!!!

-If you are UNDERWEIGHT then do not expect to lose ANYTHING you will, in fact, probably GAIN weight

Finally back on track! (And a shout out)

A shout out to the first guy I have ever seen comment on here! Hi there Aeron!!

(being a creepy overly-excitable blogger to my readers)



I am so heavy, though my weight stops climbing at 155 no matter the amount/content of food I eat, after that it can drop to 150 in like two days and fluctuate back up (this is during my binging rampages)

Cruel.

Anyway, I am back on track

I can fast again, and to be honest I don't remember why it was so hard in the first place


Maybe its just the shift in my eating disorder

(EDNOS is a bitch when it goes from binge eating to anorexia like that)

I don't want to do the ABC diet...

I think I will start taking my diuretic green coffee bean pills, and fast every other day again working myself up to fasting straight.

Here's a bunch of thinspo for my lovelies!

Audrey Hepburn, loves!

(Rest in Peace)

okay no look how effing cute this guy is though

Not a fan of One Direction but... Unf 

Hate her but her calves and biceps...

And there is perfection in a human body, like this is EXACTLY how I want to look. 

My Forum...no-go here's a better site :)

Hm well maybe I should just delete it considering ProAnaLifestyle has her site up and promoted:

www.proanalifestyle.com

And it really is much much better, it has a forum, blog area, chat, profiles with little status updates ^_^ 

The Admin is also really sweet her blog is: http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/


So please give it a looksie everyone and feel free to join!

In case you do not already follow her,

she has said that after getting enough people signed up she is going to hide the site from Google so only people with an invitation can join

(not quite sure what that means lol)

But anyway, enjoy!!

Blah..Blahh Binging and the calories?!

2004 calories today.

I don't even, I can't.

HOW does that even happen?Idon'tunderstand.

So I calculated all the calories from my binging today and that was how many calories...

I plan on doing the very first diet I ever did 3 years ago that spiraled me into my weight obsession and body dysmorphia:

6am Breakfast: 2 egg whites (34)

12pm Lunch: 1/2 cup lettuce (15)

6pm Dinner: Navel Orange (62)

Total: 105 calories

Water, Tea, and (Pepsi Max on weekends) allowed.

14 weeks and 3 days starting tomorrow until my deadline. 

I have to be skinny(er) by then.

Blah.

I can do this, just have to start my diet tomorrow I allowed myself to binge one last time to get it all out of my system and as you can see went a little overboard...  

SPAM FROM MY EMAIL: PLEASE READ!!!!!

PLEASE READ IF YOU HAVE MY EMAIL

>>If you get emails from me that is spam/random links please do NOT open them it is NOT me sending them to you!! 

>>I even get these emails from MY OWN EMAIL ADDRESS

>>I do apologize and feel awful that this is happening!!! Please don't blame me I have the cell phone number, security question AND thumbprint protections turned on to prevent people from hacking me but it still doesn't help..

People in Indonesia keep hacking my email so please please don't click the links! 

It IS okay to open the emails though so you know the real me versus the spam hackers!!

If you don't want to email me anymore and want to delete my contact then that is okay, I understand...

I just needed to make it very clear that I would never do this to anyone, so if you are angry with me I am really sorry :(

Binging recovering

When it comes down to it we all really are alone in this. 

I can't trust anyone anymore, my entire family is against me, trying to keep me fat and disgusting. All of them. My sister "says" she wants me to be healthy and gives me tips on how to starve yet she all but encourages my mom's habits!

My mom made pancakes which I shouldn't have eaten but I felt bad for her because she already made them and my parents get psycho about wasting shit ( ANY TIPS ABOUT THIS PROBLEM? :( )

So she was like "tell me when its good" (pouring syrup) after about 1 tbsp I said good and she was like "okay" and tilted it a lot more so that about 1/2 cup of syrup covered the fucking pancakes and handed it to me. 

I ate it and this triggered a massive ravenous binge....

SO I had a pot pie (like yesterday b/c I binged on a poboy thing and a potpie which in total equaled around 2000 something calories) which are 570 calories for HALF. But anyway...today it is rounded to 1200-1600...

Please kill me now.. 

I am going to get on my treadmill now and run/walk all night, when I get sore I will do yoga to stretch, when I am breathless I will strength train with weights and my body... when my muscles quiver I will repeat. 

I can't stand this! 

I want to be me again, i want to have one successful day, that is all it takes for me, and I know I am in the right mindset because I shoved a bottle of cayenne water down my throat along with green tea without giving up, and I already go 18-19 hours a day without eating (which is why when I do eat I am ravenous)

BMI: Don't trust it.

Hello my lovelies, all is well with everyone I hope?

Please Remember: I understand Anorexia is not all about getting thin / losing weight, I have the disorder I understand it more than you think. However, feeling fat/overweight is a huge part of it and feeling like crap because you think you are so far from your ultimate goal is hard and can cause people to get psychologically depressed. This post is specifically designed for those who are overweight and those who think they are 20-50 pounds (fat pounds) away from their goal. 

Down to business!

Online BMI's: Don't trust them

Why? 

Well for obvious reasons that everyone should know, your weight FLUCTUATES every millisecond of the day!!

 EVERYTHING contributes to your weight from things like: water weight, eating, working out, using the bathroom...

to things like: taking pills, hair (everywhere but especially head) bones, muscles, organs, gas, fat percentage...

And did you know: the majority of your weight comes from WATER and WASTE, this means that you may not actually need to lose 20-50 pounds but only 10-15 because in actuality you don't have that much body fat but just lots of water and waste weight. 

Question numero uno: does water weight add layers like fat? 

Answer: Sort of, it can actually LOOK like fat, it adds pounds, and many people confuse 5-10 pounds of fat with 20+ because of water  (example:

THAT is what water weight can and does look like. So you may "think" you have lots of pure pounds of fat to lose but you are WRONG!

 (similar to how waste makes you bloated/bigger?)

LASTLY..

Because your weight is based on things like height, bone/muscle mass, waste, water-weight, and how much food is still in your stomach/digesting... BMI calculators online are ALWAYS inaccurate when it comes to fat percentage. it CAN give you a rough guesstimate as to how much you should lose but honestly it is best to go to a doctor to see how much you REALLY need to lose and go from there to get to your UGW! 

Equating food with gaining weight...

I am having some serious problems with this.... I know it is I who should be giving YOU tips but please tell me what do you do when you have become "relaxed" with food?

I know eating prevents me from losing weight but I fail to connect the dots and understand eating is making me fat not being lazy. I have been binging on and off since early October, I have not worked out in a while, I have not fasted since September, I have gotten back into the 152-148 weight range (I keep bouncing around)....

Please someone just help me... tell me  what to do :( I hate eating, I hate how it makes me feel and how I feel right now, I hate not having control and feeling like a complete FAILURE, at least when I was losing weight (even though it was never enough) I felt in control..... Save me from myself