Tips: hiding your secrets

Parents

Excuses:

• "I ate at school"
• "I binged this/last _____, I am too sick to eat."  
• "I ate at _____'s house." 
• "I'm on my period, so my appetite is messed up." / "My birth control is messing with my appetite."
• "I'll eat later, I have got homework."
• "I'll eat later, I have a stomach ache right now..." (Take some tums in front of them)
• "I'm cramping!"
• "I don't like _____"
• "If you want me to eat then let me fix my own dinner."
• "I'd rather a dry salad." 

Evidence:

• Make an effort to go into the kitchen in the middle of the night/right after parents go to bed and make a little bit of noise with plates/fridge/sink (pretending to be late-night snacking) 
• Leave dirty plates in the sink/your room, make sure you throw out the food that you "ate" using that dirty plate. 

Last Resort:

• Have a rag/napkin in your pocket, try to be inconspicuous as you chew your food and "cough" a bit before putting your hand/napkin to your lips to take the food out and put it in your pocket. After dinner shake the rag out into toilet and flush the gunk down. 
• Try to eat in your room if you can, have a grocery bag stored in there to put the food in and bring the plate back, when parents are asleep throw bag away.
• If you have to eat dinner with the family then fast all day everyday so that those are the only calories you are taking in (eat only half of what is on your plate and show struggle like you are so full you are going to be sick) make sure you work out lots afterwards. 

Friends

Excuses:

• "I ate before I came"
• "I don't like _____."
• "No thanks."
• "You're not with me 24/7,  I eat all the time at home."
• "I have a fast metabolism, I eat a lot when I am home alone." 
• "Not in the mood to snack, trying to tone my muscles."

Evidence:

• Bring packed lunches to school (baby carrot sticks/celery) so they can't say you don't ever eat.
• If you are at a friends house and it is "snacking time" simply eat a fruit or claim indigestion. 
• If you're sleeping over dinner time: make sure you only get a very little, then eat only half of that, if they say anything simply say that you weren't very hungry to begin with.

Coworkers

Excuses:

• Man/Woman up and tell them it is none of their business.

Evidence (if job is on the line due to health):

• Bring packed lunches (1 slice of reduced calorie bread with mustard, carrots)
• Take lunch breaks and actually leave the office, take this time to get a diet coke from a fast food joint so when you come back it looks like you ate there. 

Lovers

Excuses:

• "I am a vegetarian/vegan"
• "not that hungry tonight"
• "it is my period/birth control"
• (distract them?Take their mind off of it?)

Evidence:

• same as you would at home with parents: leave dirty/clean dishes in sink (say you washed them)
• Cook dinner/lunch/breakfast for your partner whenever possible to take their attention from you eating
• Make deserts like cake all the time (you can cut slices and "bring them to work" but throw it out) 

The best thing in ANY scenario is to not always "play it off" or "distract them" this only works so many times before they realize you avoid that subject, every once in a while you need to have an excuse/evidence in place so that they don't think twice about it. 

You know your family/friends/partner better than I do, you know what excuses will and won't work, you know what you can/cannot get away with. Use what you have to your advantage (i.e. if your parents work late/home alone often/never go out/etc.) 

You want them to either be in denial about your habits or genuinely believe that you are eating, you just are "finicky" or "picky" 

Tips: prevent a binge

To Do List: 

• Count as high as you need to, to calm down/redirect your thoughts and assess the situation
• Read anything you've written about binging/wanting to fast or make a list of reasons you should not eat
• Take a deep breath and down as much water as possible
• Keep telling yourself that you will eat as soon as you finish another glass of water
• Look at some thinspo:

Distractions:

• Make a list of all the foods you would like you eat/are craving and look up what REALLY goes into those foods (i.e. peanut butter = insect particles, rodent hairs)
• Watch that show/movie you heard about but never got around to: 

Shows & Movies Online (Legal and Free, no download or surveys)

• Write out a new diet plan/weight loss plan
• Make a list of things you will reward yourself with instead of food
• Write down / Remind yourself why you want to lose weight
• Listen to music and day dream/write fan fiction
• Read fanfiction or stories on Wattpad.com
• Tumblr/Twitter
• Drink lots of cold water and favourite tea (1 tbsp of creamer is 10 calories, splenda sugar 0 calories)
• Watch shows/movies/videos that trigger you, especially with actresses/actors whose body you want
• Go through your Ana book/journal if you have one
• Write down everything you're feeling, what is helping and what isn't (this will help for next time) add it to your ana book/journal

COUNT TO 10 AND BREATHE

YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS WITHOUT BINGING

TIps: getting past a binge

If your feeling sick/in pain post binge:

• Sit up straight, raise your arms up and stretch back (as you would do to stretch your abs) and take a deep breath in through your mouth, then as you relax let it out slowly
• Drink some cold water (slowly!), it helps you feel a bit better to pee 
• Lay on your left side with a pillow beneath your mid section and relax 
• If you have a thumper:

Then lay down on your back and use it on your stomach (move it around in downward movements) for 10-15 minutes. This helps with getting trapped air out which causes the bloating and pain. If you do not have a thumper, simply massage your stomach with your hands or set up a few pillows and lay on them with them under your stomach, the pressure will have the same effect.  

Post Binge:

• Drink some ice cold water and take a few laxatives
• Do some cardio (running is best) 30-60 minutes post-binge to speed up digestion
• When you go to the bathroom / start to feel empty again: drink more water
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Burn off as much as possible:

• Cardio is always best to aid in digestion and help laxatives do their job.
• Do the "100 Workout" 1-2 hours post binge , drink lots of water 

Recovering:

• Water fast up to 12 hours post-binge to help prevent bloating (have a meal plan in place) 
• If you didn't have a movement then take 1 or 2 more laxatives, workout again within the 12 hours
• Make sure you get AT LEAST 72 ounces of water in you to push everything out and prevent dehydration/constipation/bloating
• Your binge has NOT passed until your stomach feels empty/you start feeling hunger again or your stomach feels flat again / empty of air. 

Old Playlist

In regards to my old playlist, here is a list of some of the *POSSIBLE* songs:

Passenger - Let her go 

Pumped up Kicks - Foster the People

Teenage Dirtbag - wheatus

Big Jet Plane - Angus and Julia Stone

ASAP Rocky - Wild For The Night Feat. Skrillex

The Pen and the Pendulum - No Hands [screamo]

Waka Flocka Flames - No Hands 

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For the people that need one of the songs:

>if you can remember any

> lyrics

                                 >Song style (fast/high pitch)

                                     >if the singer was male/female

Then it would help me a lot to find the song for you...

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These were most likely not on it but just in case:

Nightcore - Children Of Darkness 

Nightcore - Bruises And Bitemarks

Nightcore - Marionette (Male Version)

Nightcore - Popular

Nightcore - Wish I Had An Angel (Nightwish) (HQ)

Timbaland - Hands In The Air Dubstep REMIX (Battery Remix)

NIGHTCORE- Promise Me

Nightcore - Zombie Dance

Nightcore - Knife Called Lust

Nightcore - Bloody Mary

Nightcore - All The Things She Said (Radio Mix) ( DJ Gollum feat. Scarlet)

Nightcore - Heart Attack

Nightcore - Titanium

Nightcore - Propane Nightmares

(HD) Nightcore - I Walk Alone

nightcore ~ rockstar

I've been gone

Finally got into the habit of fasting, not intentionally (obviously, because whenever I actually try to fast or get better at it I just start a binge cycle), and I am finally able to fast 25-27 hours at a time without trying.

I broke my fast at 26 hours earlier yesterday (it is 12:23 am right now) and then restarted, planning to go onto 2 full days this time...

I am currently 10 hours in and feel fine.

How is everyone else doing?

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