God, drink as much water as possible, do not drink it up all at once to try and make up for not drinking all day, it does not work. I promise water will help with the hunger and all that, being tasteless it will fire up cravings, and cravings will be hell but that is what this is! Control, having control over your own body and not letting some...thing (food) control it for you. I want a new day right now, a fresh start, I just need a clean slate to go on, I need the hunger, I crave it and the hunger pain! I want it so bad it is not even funny.
It is almost like...I measure my worth not only by my weight but by how empty I am and feel. In an hour or so, after the water I have just downed has settled, I will immediately jump into vigorous aerobic activities (jumping jacks, step aerobics) Then I while I rest so my heart rate can slow down a bit I will use weights and do hip extensions and work on my arms, while I let my muscles relax, I will do crunches and sit ups and plank. Then I will start all over from the top, and continue this way all night like I have done for the past fucking WEEK. I want control and until I have complete and utter control over my body I will continue this! I will have the perfect body and soul, burn calories burn!!
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