Today

Woke up late at like 1:10-ish PM

Had:

1 burger patty by itself : 320 calories

1/3 cup of stuffing but 1 serving is 1/2 cup so just going by that: 160 calories

Total: 480

and I am done for the day. 

For those of you who did not look into that article:

Twinkie diet helps nutrition professor lose 27 pounds

His theory: "That in weight loss, pure calorie counting is what matters most -- not the nutritional value of the food"

Pro-Ana proves this point by how some people chose to take one bite of anything through out the day, eat bagels, only eat fruit, or have a monotone diet that they stick to for weeks and yet we all still lose or maintain our weight (unless we binge). 

The theory held up: On his "convenience store diet," he shed 27 pounds in two months

"Haub limited himself to less than 1,800 calories a day. A man of Haub's pre-dieting size usually consumes about 2,600 calories daily. So he followed a basic principle of weight loss: He consumed significantly fewer calories than he burned."

Obviously, you would not be consuming that much, here:

Normal intake --- New intake

1600         ---       800

1200         ---       400

1000         ---       200

He went down by 800 calories so that is exactly what I did, OBVIOUSLY you do not need to say right at 200 every single day, you can be flexible with that one especially if you are not going to be eating healthy, nutritious, energy boosting foods. 

IF you lower your calorie intake significantly like down to 200 for a daily calorie amount, make sure you are taking vitamins like Biotin, Omega 3, Daily vitamins (children vitamins for example), calcium etc. etc.

"Despite his temporary success, Haub does not recommend replicating his snack-centric diet."

"Two-thirds of his total intake came from junk food. He also took a multivitamin pill and drank a protein shake daily. And he ate vegetables, typically a can of green beans or three to four celery stalks."

21/03/13

So right now I am creating a notebook entirely devoted to everything negative:

• Everything I hate about my body
• Embarrassing/mean things people have said about my weight/body
• all the things I want but cant have (clothes) because I am too fat
• inspirational Thinspo Quotes (stop eating so much you fat pig)
• songs that make me feel like a pathetic anorexic/want to work out
• Situations that make me want to be skinny (pool parties...)

etc.

And I am making it a 21-day project. 

I am currently 157.6 

I had 437 calories today (half a sandwich and some Cajun fries)

Going to burn off at LEAST 200 of that, will be aiming for 800 (no more than that as I don't want blood sugar to go down and force me to have to drink OJ/Orange Juice)

Even after I ate, still the same weight, which is good.. means I didn't eat enough to affect the overall weight of my body then it definitely was not enough to affect my weight loss

I need to be 155 by tomorrow because me and my bestest Ana buddy are in a competition, for every pound we are off we must workout for an hour. 

THINSPO:

Ana Homework

Mathematics: 1. Figure out how many pounds you must loose to be at your ideal weight. Multiply by 3500 (how many calories that equal a pound). This is what you need to work off. 2. Find out what your BMR is (your Basic metabolic rate, which is how many cals your body burns per day just to live). 3. Add your BMR with how many cals you burn each day through exercise etc, then take away how many cals you eat. Work out how many days it will take to get to your ideal weight. 4. Work out your BMI (go to my Weight loss basics page). Are you overweight? Underweight? Or in the healthy range? What would you like to be? 5. Weigh yourself and measure your height 6. decide how much you want to lose, if it is a high number (20+ lb) create several goal weights and then an ultimate goal weight.  7. Find out how many calories in common foods that you eat, memorize them 8. Workout what exercises you need to do and how much to burn a sufficient amount of calories. English: 1. Write a poem. Here are some examples for what it could be about- Being fat Being thin The Change happening within you Ana in your life 2. Start an Ana Journal, if you haven’t already. 3. Write a story about how Ana came into your life, and what it’s been like since. write a diary write down all your secret thoughts and feeling letting it out will make you feel better. 4. Write a story about life as an anorexic. (what ana is like, how it affects someone's life in every single way etc.) 5. read books where the main character has an eating disorder, make sure to post the name of the book and a summary in your own words.  6. read magazines (fashion, diet pages etc). Science: 1. Research diet pills, compare them and work out which would be best for you. 2. Research volumetrics, and using their formula for calculating energy density, explain why it’s important to stick to whole foods instead of processed, packaged foods.  3. Research vitamins our body needs every day and why. 4. research the best sources for getting certain vitamins 5. research laxatives, find the most dangerous and the healthiest compare, then research why it is bad to take laxatives and their effect on the body. History: 1. Research famous anorexic people throughout history. 2. Write an essay on one of them. Include childhood details, their battle with anorexia and if they recovered or not. 3.  research when Anorexia first arose. Psychology: 1. Find out how the brain works, and why some people get mental illnesses. 2. Write a list of things that might trigger an eating disorder. E.g. mean comments on weight. 3. write a short essay on when you got you're eating disorder (what caused it? how old were you? has anyone else in your family had and ED?) Music: 1. Look up songs that either has to do with Anorexia (E.g. Ana’s Song by Silverchair) or one that could be related to Ana (E.g. Beautiful by Christina). 2. Pick one of these songs, and write an essay on what it means to you. 3. If you have musical talent, try writing a song about Ana. Art: 1. Draw a self portrait of yourself (your whole body). 2. Draw Ana as a person. What would she look like? 3. Draw a picture that represents anorexia. 4. Look up other anorexic’s art. 5. Make a thinspo collage 6. take a photo of yourself and edit it to show how you would look if you reached your goal weight. Social Studies: 1. Research the diets of different counties around the world. Compare them and work out which would be the healthiest. Debate: 1. Write down the pros and cons of being Pro-Ana. 2. Compare fasting and just restricting. What are the pros and cons of each? 3. Write an empowering essay on why being skinny is good. Home Eco: 1. Look through your kitchen and supermarket. Write down any foods you like that contain under 100cals. 2. Write down what you used to eat, what you eat now, and what you want to aim for. Compare them. Health: 1. Research all the different vitamins your body needs, why it needs them, and what foods contain them. 2. Buy some multi-vitamin pills. 3. Write an essay on obesity, its effects, and why junk food is bad for your health. 4. Research what side effects come from having anorexia and how to avoid them. 5. Research how much rodent hair/feces, insect parts are allowed in certain foods (I will have a list for you to choose from) Literature: 1. Look at the list of books on my website that have to do with anorexia. Find some, either bought or from your local library, and read them. 2. Write an essay on your favourite. Stick Figure: By Lori Gottieb  To die for: By Carol Lee  Second star to the right: By Deborah Haukig  Eli's Wings: By Elizabeth Best  California Diaries #8, Maggie: By Ann M. Martin  Bronte's Story: By Bronte Cullis  A Journey Shared: By Jan Cullis  Wasted: By Marya Hornbacher Diary of an anorexic girl: By Morgan Menzie The Passion of Alice: By Stephani Grant Drama: 1. Create a monologue (a solo performance) that convinces you to be skinny. Perform it whenever you feel like giving up. 2. Pretend you are your ideal weight, and that you’re beautiful and confident. Now pretend you’re twice your weight, and imagine how ashamed you would be. Compare. Which would you rather? 3. research movies and documentaries about anorexia, talk about it, etc. 4. Research documentaries on food, involving the health issues, where food comes from etc. Gym: 1. Go for a 6 mile run, and time yourself. Do this often, always trying to beat your fastest time. 2. Research different exercises, devise a daily routine for yourself, and then try keep it up for at least 2 weeks.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge


Day One- Your stats

Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?

Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?

Day Eight- Your workout routine.

Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”

Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!

Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?

Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?

Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?

Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?

Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?

Day Twenty- Favorite diet?

Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?

Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia

Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.

Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?

Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?

Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?

Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.

Day Thirty-  10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

Best motivation out there~

Make small booklets, get flash cards, whatever size ( I got rather large ones ) and cut them in half ( not all if you don't want, but you will need quite a few) 

I have 5 booklets because you can only staple so many together so how many you have really depends on how much you do and add to it. 

My first booklet consists of:

Advice, tips, and tricks:

• "Do not eat after or during fast, you will binge, binge = guilt, punishment."
• "If you start making excuses / or trying to talk yourself into eating distract yourself at all costs" (then lists activities)
• The next few cards are common excuses I use that I always give in to, then below each excuse I wrote why I should not give up and what usually happens when I believe my excuses ("I'll only eat this, besides it is healthy I will go right back to fasting after")
• Schedule, I have the times I usually binge, The times I usually get bored, The times I usually get hungry / lazy. 
• Reasons I can't binge
• The next few are just quotes such as "If you are too embarrassed to even look at your stomach, you have no business eating bitch!"
• The next one has my goal weight, and current weight and how much time I have left to get there (less than 30 days)
• The last card is punishments, I take stuff away from myself, how long I take it away depends on how bad the binge was and how hard I worked to fix it. It lists things I actually enjoy and would have a hard time coping without, this way I don't cheat myself.
• Then on the back it has my GW, and CW and below it the difference between the two (subtract GW from CW)

The next 2 booklets are basically just quotes and thinspirational sayings. I also have a red flag list in there which lists things that commonly cause me to gain, fail or cheat:

• Home cooked meals
• Pizza
• Staying in the kitchen or living room too long
• Watching/Seeing/hearing about/talking about food too much (this means do not watch FOOD channels, do not stay in kitchen and stare at food, do not watch others eat or talk about what someone else or what you ate that day.

The next 2 booklets are tricks and things to think about/do when I fail, want to cheat etc. 

Make some for yourself and keep them with you always, always, always. Read them when you wake up and when you are tempted or craving. Sometimes (most of the time) this works better than looking at pictures or watching thinspo videos because it is your own stuff.

ALSO :::::::::

Take a picture of yourself and draw where you want to tone/lose. Do this every single week!

20 Reasons for Perfection...

Side note: If I ever upload a picture twice, I am sorry but get over it, it is not that big of a deal! Thank you!!

This will be a 5 part series so when I finish I will have made 100 personal reasons to be skinny! 

1. To look sexy in thigh-high socks
2. To say I am beautiful and mean it
3. To be able to wear shorts
4. For the gap between my thighs
5. For the collar bones
6. For love
7. To be pretty
8. To be able to sit or slouch without seeing rolls
9. To not have to worry if I look fat in something
10. To be able to wear dresses and corsets
11. For the jealous looks Ill get
12. So people will take me seriously
13. So I can prove everyone wrong
14. So I can feel superior
15. So I can motivate my friends with my body
16. So I wont need jackets anymore
17. So I can webcam without feeling insecure
18. To be able to take pics at every angle and still look good
19. To be graceful
20. For the compliments

"Someday is not an option, do it now"

Meaning, stop worrying about people looking at you when you run, or if you look nasty doing jumping jacks, just fucking do it.

So stop with the mini goal weights all ready and just keep going no matter how long it takes you

New Project! Pebble Jar!

This is a great motivator! One pebble per pound! This will not be a long post so I'll add some thinspo:

No better thinspo then scene girls right?

String Project

It is not really called anything it is just a thinspirator! 

Tie a string around the fattest part of your stomach as tight as you can get it and then leave it, this will remind you that if you eat too much the string will be too tight, if you lose weight it will fall off!! 

Stay Hungry, my loves! :)

Bracelet project

Of course if you have been Ana for a while or are at least a die-hard Ana, then you already know about this! However, for those few who do not....

The bracelet project is to help ProAna and ProMia girls to recognize each other so we can befriend and motivate each other to our goals! I will not go into ProMia other than saying it is a beaded blue bracelet on your right wrist. Nothing else matters.

Now--ProAna is a RED beaded bracelet in which you wear on your left wrist!

Nothing matters except that it is red and that it is beaded, the beads can be any shape you want, you can even use something like this:

or

 it is recommended that you make this yourself as this represents you and what you stand for and it should have meaning, so when alone and afraid you have that to remind you what you are doing! 

PLEASE!! If you are waiting until you are skinny because you do not think you are worthy, DON'T!! This is to show you are ProAna not that you are anorexic, or already skinny!! Please, please make one/buy one and wear it NOW!!