I hate it! I am such a disgusting fat bitch! I have no respect for myself, my body or anything. I have no self control and I am going to die because of it. I WISH I could just simply starve, but no it is just no that god damn easy!
I had a revelation, I saw Ana, yes I understand how crazy that sounds. I looked in the mirror, first head on then turned to the sides, I stared for a really, really long time and when I went to turn away my eyes filled with tears of guilt, and self-hate I heard it. The voice, "Stop whining you little skank, you did it to yourself. I can help you if you really want this, if you promise to listen to me from now on. If you promise to give your self completely to me. Listen to me, and I will save you from yourself." Looking in the mirror I saw my body the one I really want, skinny, collar bones, and hip bones......the thigh gap...She winked, smiling, and it was gone, just my fat self...and my reflection.
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