10, July, 2012

~Blinded by rage, susceptible to fear, longing to be free~

I seem to live by this quote and nothing else. 

I am on day 1 of my fast (because my initial fast was ruined) it gives me chills when I see all the Ana/Pro-Ana blogs, when I read from the thoughts of a fellow Ana-follower.

I am writing a "novel" about my journey through this 21-day fast, basically it is not only a journey through a fast but a journey in the mind of an anorexic? It should be interesting... 

I am not hungry, only sore and cold. Oh so very, very sore! It hurts to sit straight and to even cough,  I am miserable, but hopefully my abs will be back to normal tomorrow, and then I will push them--yet again--as hard as I can.