One teeny tiny confession?
It's a bit nasty so I apologize in advance...
True confession#1:
I want to be thin more than anything else in the entire world. I will do anything to become thin, I don't care who I hurt or lose along the way. I build walls and push people away because being thin, of course, is the most important thing in the entire world to me, it is everything.
I have lost all interest in making friends and trying to keep them.
Why 1/2 ass do two things when you can whole ass do one thing? Might as well make that one thing something you actually care about... right?
I've started feeling the exact same.
ReplyDeleteI've slipped away from all my friends recently, and I'm pretty sure it's because I'm so moody, I don't reply to them properly and refuse to join in conversations. I'm losing everyone, and I don't even care.
Social occasions mean food.
My sister just left for university, and all I can think is: she knows about my laxative use and she's heard me purging often enough to suspect, now she's gone there's one less person to notice.
I'm looking forward to the inevitable moment where I lose all my friends and family, and I can be left alone with my craziness and eating habits.
Take care darling.