You know what the worst feeling ever is? Fullness.
Worse than the sharp stabbing pain of hunger, worse than the agonizingly intense chocolate cravings, worse than the hateful voice inside your head.
What is worse then fullness? Seeing the angry red glow of a number you swore you would never see again: 145.0
I am fasting today (it is just now 12:30 am so only 30 minutes into it) and I cannot wait until the hunger sets in.
I want to be in the 130s so bad.. I don't think I want to eat until I am in the 130s.. now that I have my mind set I won't.. this is probably why I am falling behind in school I am focusing every ounce of my attention and energy on losing weight. Not eating is not even an issue, I hate the way it makes me feel and have come to grow angry when someone offers food, and I fear the scale more than anything and yet at the same time I love it, so I must starve and workout until the numbers read 139...
You can do it darling. I've got to agree, the pain of hunger is NOTHING compared to the disappointment of feeling full. I'd rather starve to death than fill full and unable to do anything about it.
ReplyDeleteGood luck, you can do this.
Also, I can't find the thing to subscribe to your comment replies, so I don't know if you've been replying to me or not, so sorry if it looks like I'm ignoring any replies.
Is it something I have to add so you can subscribe? D: Don't feel bad though it is alright :D thank you so much for all your lovely comments they really do brighten up my days, I hope your weight loss is going good ^_^
DeleteYou can do it :)
ReplyDeleteEveryone had there off days, just remeber how full feels before you eat.
Zara