What do you see in the mirror?

I have always wondered if I have BDD (Body dysmorphia disorder) because I look in the mirror and see this ginormous, ugly, creature and I compare myself to the ugliest people and the prettiest in hopes that I can pick out what makes me so ugly, what makes my fatness stick out more than their's? 

Uglyness, fatness, too wide, too big, I am too big!! Big bones, big head, big nose, big arms, too wide for this chair, taking up too much space too much too much too much!!

When I look in the mirror I see this from every angle (No this is NOT me this is just what I see) 

And everyone looks at me like I am completely insane and say "I swear to God.. you look so tiny, you are not even big!" and if they notice I have caught a glimpse of my reflection or am prodding and poking my body they quickly get out "you do not look fat if that is what you are thinking" 

Sometimes the girl in the mirror is bigger. Sometimes I actually question how I don't have diabetes, how I am able to walk without wobbling. I worry about doing things like getting on rides in fear I will be too fat to be locked in, or that I will make it shake when I sit down. Sometimes (and this is EXTREMELY hard to comprehend if you do not suffer from this or know what I am talking about) I see this:

I feel too wide when I sit on a couch or chair, like I take up more space on it than everyone else, in the car at the movies I feel my head is too big and in people's way.. 

It is so frustrating!! Never seeing progress, feeling bones little by little but still seeing too much fat here and there covering them back up! I feel the fat, making me sick!