Has anyone else... lost ana? Could have been for a few months, few weeks or even a few years. Not by choice, not for recovery, but simply because you developed binge eating or Ana turned into EDNOS?
Ugh... October... Since freaking OCTOBER I have been binging, eating "normally", feeling guilty but without the ability to stop it. I hate myself. Can't stand looking at myself in the mirror.
I want her..it.. back, like seriously this is literally KILLING me! Not having any control over it, basically blacking out or going numb as I stuff my face with everything I can get my hands on everyday, only to come to my senses and try to burn it off in any way I can. But it won't matter, I can burn those calories and then some, but you know as well as I, that when you eat, you feel fatter, heavier, uglier, and no amount of calories you burn off will change that, only days of gaining your self-control will. Ugh. I want to be hungry and starve, I want the numbers to drop. I miss it so much, I can't stop it. It is like a tidal wave crashing over me.
I have twice. Due to pregnancy both times. Please don't stress yourself too much, you'll get back there. Stay strong sweet thing.
ReplyDeleteThat cartoon is chilling...
ReplyDeleteIf you get hungry try these tips:
ReplyDelete1. Put cinnamon in your water, it adds a nice taste and it has health benefits.
2. Brush your teeth, it may sound weird, but it really puts you off wanting to eat.
I hope this helped, stay strong xxx
I was severely Ana for years, got down to a size 0 in pants, and then it just stopped. I don't know how explain it. No therapy or anything. I was fine for like 3 years, and then recently I developed Mia. Sounds messed up but I wish I could just starve myself again. :(
ReplyDeleteHun, nothing you said sounds messed up to me, I am sorry for your struggle and hope you get back on track soon! Stay strong, love
DeleteI totally hear you! I used to be so close to my goal weight a few years ago, then I gained much because I was forced to eat. Now it's so hard and I feel like Ana left me. I stuff my face, feel guilty before, during and after eating, but still I can't stop it. I want back my self-dontrol. I used to make it through months with only an apple a day (or nothing at all) and what have I become now??
ReplyDeleteBut I mustn't give up and you also mustn't give up!
We CAN reach our goals and we WILL!
Stay strong!<3