6/18/12

So sorry I have been gone for soooo long, my friend is here. You know it really sucks because it is so much easier to binge in the company of someone else who does not mind binging with you. So here I am gaining fucking weight :( Kill me now. I will lose weight this summer hopefully.

My dad finally got tofu and carrots and I have apples so I refuse to binge any longer...

6/9/12

Doing good, really hungry and have not binged! I am very pleased :) Though I have not lost any significant weight I look smaller so I may be losing inches and not weight as I certainly have not been in forever! Today is the day I am meeting up with my best friend. 

I am also really cold, I wish that would go away but every time I get warm my stomach hurts, don't know if that is related or I am only making that connection in my mind. 

How is everyone else out there doing? 

Why Can't I stop?!

Why can't I fucking stop binging?! I feel so fat, so ugly, so worthless and embarrassed. I am humiliated! I am One hundred and sixty fucking pounds....

UGH! I can't wait until my friend gets here, I really need a kick in the butt... :(