Throw it out

lol you can see my feet (I am only wearing one sock because it is holding on a band-aid, I stabbed my toe on a nail since our carpet is ripped up, I accidentally stepped on it)

It feels so...good to throw away food.. not just turning food away but throwing it away! 

it is a nice rush of endorphins and serotonin 

Conquering food and saying "No, dammit!"

My mom got burgers and fries and I told her I was not hungry but she gave me fries anyway, I took them with a smile and threw them out in my bathroom's bin (I saved the sauce since my mom really likes it). 

I will do the same with the burger after she goes to sleep and take the trash out (or just give it to my dad), she will thank me for actually doing a chore for once and be none the wiser :)

Anyone else love throwing food out? or is that just a weird thing I enjoy?

My best friend and I are going to compete; she is a friend who I have met in person before and has moved out of state so were competing through text but still, at least it is someone I will see this summer and so there is real pressure to stay on top of things. 

You know... I am always so unhappy, literally depressed where I just am bored with life and need to find a way out, but...

Ana makes me happy... and no amount of hate, or "pro-ana is wrong" or whatever is ever going to change that. 

Ana makes me happy. It is the only thing that makes me happy. 

If you don't understand that or can't accept that, then I am sorry, but I don't really care... 

Pro-Fat People

Pro-Fat... What does this mean, you ask... 

Let me tell you..

It is a minority group of people who LOVE fat, they strive to gain weight, love other people who are overweight and celebrate in it, it turns them on.

I have never seen ANYTHING more disgusting then this: 

She wants to gain 30lbs a week and hopes to have gained an extra 120lbs after 4 weeks. 

I cannot believe there are people like this in the world, I guess for every extremity there is a polar opposite, but this is just sick, ribs and hipbones all the way over a flabby stomach. 

Seriously, I would rather date a fellow Anorectic then a chubby,,, I know that is mean but :/ 

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But PLEASE don't take this as "I hate fat people" because I don't. Don't think that if you're overweight still or have a little flab I will be super disgusted or anything, it is fine. I don't even look at people and think like that, typically I don't care; I just don't find it attractive but rather repulsive on myself and I simply prefer skinny guys/girls over chubbier ones.. 

Chubby/Fat I mean like in the video above, I DON'T mean "10 or 15 lbs overweight"