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I just want to cry so bad right now. How could I possibly let myself get back to this weight and maintain it? What am I thinking? I am so weak it is pathetic. Reading all of your blogs rips at my insides, my throat is burning because I am fighting back the tears of guilt in which I have not felt for the past week because I had shut the world out and let myself eat freely. Self-loathing has never been so painful.
I found a routine I like (2 hours of running/walking on treadmill, 15 minutes of stretching, 15 minutes of arm and leg toning workouts, 5 minute cool down and 25 minutes of running/walking)
I change it up slightly if I find something interesting, or want to focus more on a specific area of my body...
By this Friday I will do everything in my power to be 134/135 I haven't given up, I will fast on Pepsi Max, Green Tea and Water while working out to the max until I make this happen.
Blah.
Give me strength :(
Hey sweetie, just stay strong and you'll get there eventually. I know how it feels to feel guilty and hate yourself for losing control. I'm starting a two week water fast tomorrow to un-do all the damage of done from the past week and a half. It's intense, I know, but not as intense as the guilt that's eating me inside.
ReplyDeleteI've been keeping up on your blog and think that it's wonderful. You seem like a lovely person and I wish you all the best :)
Be strong! I am in the same situation. But my boyfriend keeps bringing me to restaurants to guilt me into eating. He's the one that originally told me he wanted a really tiny girl in the first place...
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you Hun! I'll be back to see your success on Friday!
Xoxo
-Min
I know you can do it! Iseriously always look at your blog when im feeling down bevause ive givrn up at times and fail my goal weigt ihave to do this to!!! Ibelieve in you and you inspire me to with all the blogs youve written they keep me motivated to:) good luck girlie and if anyone needs a motivater like i do everyday email me ! -heidi and heres my email...hljsports21@yahoo.com thanks for listening im inspired by you:) iknow yiu can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteHi, I usually don't post a comment, but I thought this would be the right time. You can't control yourself with food and it's normal, we all binge and we can't help ourselves. But don't feel guilty and don't cry, what happened, happened and you can't do anything about it. You can only fix the mistake and be strong. I remember, a few weeks ago, I saw that you had lost a few pounds and I'm sure you are still capable of doing it again! You have time to lose all the pounds you have gained this week. Good idea, workout but don't hurt yourself even more, it only gets worse. By the way, why do people drink pepsi and diet coke? I thought that's what makes us gain more.
ReplyDeleteGood luck and I hope you succeed (:
Vanessa
Be strong, and remember if you eat what you always eat than you will weigh what you always weighed.... now that being said I've been where you are before and I find it helpful to change what I eat(to fruit, veggies, and other safe foods) after I'm done fasting. Feeling the urge to eat is normal but remember you fought it once you can fight it again, and for good this time :)... Hope I helped....
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