I take back what I said...

I never realized how truly...obsessed my sister was with her own image, I mean of course since she had anorexia years ago it is still a tender area but...

She skipped her best friend's engagement party because she gained 10 pounds... it barely shows (but is definitely noticeable if you see her all the time) and I'm beginning to worry ...I don't want her falling into old patterns, especially with her moving back in with us... and if she does she'll pick up on mine..

Like my little habit of running/speed walking at 2-4 am...

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It took me 21 minutes on the dot to burn 100 calories exactly... How pathetic!!

I know I haven't ran in one or two a couple months but... CHRIST! This is unacceptable.. I am going to spend the next week building my endurance back up and hopefully be able to hold a steady run for that long (21 minutes) and burn triple that (100 calories)

Personal

heh so I know this is really wrong but I think it might just be poetic justice? 

My "forever thin" sister who could eat anything she wanted and not gain weight, whose confidence fed off of people's my mom jealousy worry... Who always told me it is about inner beauty and that people who only care about appearance are shallow and not "of God" '

How the mighty have fallen

My sister is getting FAT!

yes, and really fast at that! (rhyme not intended)

She's gained a noticeable 10-15 pounds and I can't help but feel good inside and I know how sickeningly wrong that is but every time she texts me about how "fat" she feels and how she is embarrassed and doesn't want to see people because of what they might think it reminds me of all the times I told her I was disgusted with myself or embarrassed to go somewhere / do something because I was fat and how she would look down on me and say "oh littles its okay! No one cares! And you shouldn't care what people think, like who cares?" 

HA apparently you do you sanctimonious turd. She thrived on that, on my insecurities and jealousy, and even when she had hipbones she would say she was fat just to hear me wail and convince her with my last breath that she was the tiniest thing I'd ever seen and now that she actually is gaining weight, actually is getting chubby, she sounds different, genuinely displeased when she says she is fat... and I can't help but smile.

sweet poetic justice. 

But don't think that this means I can slack off!

Nope, because she is not slacking either, she just told me today "but it is okay because I am doing something about it. Xxxxx offered me a smoothie today and I said no." 

So I am just going to continue this fast as long as it takes and work out I don't give a flying fuck if it makes me pass out or if 'it is bad for you' to work out whilst fasting 

I will beat her 

and finally be the skinny sister for once

Nothing better worse for an ED than good old fashion jealousy and rivalry 

Diets; Vegan

There is - for some reason - a hype surrounding the vegan lifestyle in hopes that it will magically make you thin. This is very untrue; this is especially untrue if you don't know what foods to eat! 

There are vegans or people who become vegans that actually gain more weight or don't lose any weight at all because they eat the wrong things or too much of the "right" things. 

I have already made a post about the dangers of eating too much fruit and not burning off enough calories, how the sugars in fruit can make you gain just as much weight as eating unhealthy foods can.  

But also there are all the foods that contains sugar, carbohydrates, high fat content, gluten, and MSG (salt) that you need to watch out for.

Just because you are vegan and that cuts out meat, dairy, eggs and anything else that comes from animals in anyway shape or form doesn't mean junk food magically disappears from your diet as well. So beware and always read the label.

(random tip: always look to see if your local shopping market has gluten-free alternatives to anything you normally buy)

Some vegan-friendly foods/meals I like that are low calorie and help you lose weight effectively are:

FOODS:

• wasabi peas (its not real wasabi, it is horseradish but still effective)
• roasted seaweed (it comes in sheets)
• baby carrots (35 calories for 8 oz)
•  celery (basically 0 calories)
•  raw broccoli (its like 4 calories for a small bowl full)
• Lemons
• Almonds (put 6 in a bag and eat 2 per meal time)

MEALS:

• Stir Fry         

Level: Medium

Calorie Per Serving: 100 - 200 

(depends on rice and sauce)

Time: 20-35 minutes 

 
Ingredients: 

- Any vegetables you like (usually soy beans, broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, mushrooms, bell peppers, snap peas are used, but you can pick and choose as you like to suit your fancy)

-Tofu can be used if you want more protein , this must be prepared a day before though (not putting that here).

-You can buy seasonings or sauces for the base flavour a good few would be something with Ginger in it, I just looked up some good ones but they are all called "stir fry sauce" and "classic stir fry sauce" so just look at ingredients / calories and pick the best)

-rice (you can use plain white or brown or whole grain or Japanese it doesn't matter as long as you know how to prepare it)

I may or may not update this later IDK I will probably forget unless someone says something