Urgh so I always visit my best friend every summer, well...she visits me, and this summer I'm visiting her; and her cousin is super pretty and skinny and all the guys love her and we actually really, really dislike each other. Like, a lot.
She even went back and said that a top I wore looked awful and made me look fat so I have got to lose all this freaking weight before I go down there or else I am not going.
I don't even allow myself to leave the house if I have not lost the proper amount of weight yet, how the hell am I supposed to face this girl if I am not emaciated bones by the time I visit?
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I feel guilty about throwing away food... do any of y'all feel guilty when you hide food/throw it away?
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I've been drinking 2 litres of water a day and it's driving me up the wall having to go to the flipping bathroom every two minutes (okay, more like every 30 minutes); Does drinking lots of water like that help you lose weight quickly along side restricting?
I feel so fatigued it is as if someone has been sucking the very life from my bones, leaving me a slouched bag of fat. Ugh.
I am using my sister's bikini as motivation , well...not really motivation, but a reminder that if I don't lose weight, then I am going to have to wear that thing all summer looking like a dried up beach whale
hahaha I freaking hate myself
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