I apologize for my inexplicable absence of late... To be honest there is really nothing new to add here, I may or may not have lost weight but I have noticed a sizable amount from my midsection's sides disappear.
I am not here to post about progress though; but rather I am here to say that I am not so adamant about making my whole life revolve around my "pro-ana" lifestyle in which is shown through my numerous blogs, folders of thinspo and desire to be a walking bone because I can't stand myself and I don't deserve food.
I have reconnected with God, and began to pray a lot recently and I can't shake the feeling that this blog and my encouragements to you to starve are...less than pleasing to God.
I have thought about deleting it, changing it to a "pro-health", or whatever but I feel like neither were really good answers as this blog has obviously helped a lot of people get through some stuff or at least gave them a few tools to work through it on their own.
So I will keep this blog up and running, but just know that when I make a post about anything it will be about healthy workout plans, healthy "diets", and healthy foods... I don't want to say I'm "cured" of my eating disorder because even that is pretty far-fetched. I still pass reflective surfaces and pinch my fat, I still feel sick when I see my fat, and I still struggle with making myself eat or making myself stop sometimes...
But,
I refuse to encircle my life with "ANOREXIANOREXIANOREXIA" because that does not help me either, and I have found that the more I try to follow the "pro-ana" lifestyle the fatter I get because my eating disorder is not just starvation, it is binging too... So I am working on eating only healthy foods (I control the unhealthy crap in which I will allow to enter me)...
BOTTOM LINE:
I will still post here, just not as much and it won't be "pro-ana"-related; more so just healthy workouts and workout regimens, stress-relievers, detox diets, et cetra...
If you would like to follow my more inspirational blogs either to keep up with me or just because, then here are the links:
Hey I think it's a great thing that you recovered.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad for you. I hope that all of us will find something like you that will help us get or brains back :)
Best wishess
Reena
You sound like a psychotic religoous bitch.
ReplyDeleteThat was not my intentions... Maybe you have a little trouble with coming off different than what you intended as well? I'll pray for you hun <3 spread love not hate
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