heh so I know this is really wrong but I think it might just be poetic justice?
My "forever thin" sister who could eat anything she wanted and not gain weight, whose confidence fed off of people's my mom jealousy worry... Who always told me it is about inner beauty and that people who only care about appearance are shallow and not "of God" '
How the mighty have fallen
My sister is getting FAT!
yes, and really fast at that! (rhyme not intended)
She's gained a noticeable 10-15 pounds and I can't help but feel good inside and I know how sickeningly wrong that is but every time she texts me about how "fat" she feels and how she is embarrassed and doesn't want to see people because of what they might think it reminds me of all the times I told her I was disgusted with myself or embarrassed to go somewhere / do something because I was fat and how she would look down on me and say "oh littles its okay! No one cares! And you shouldn't care what people think, like who cares?"
HA apparently you do you sanctimonious turd. She thrived on that, on my insecurities and jealousy, and even when she had hipbones she would say she was fat just to hear me wail and convince her with my last breath that she was the tiniest thing I'd ever seen and now that she actually is gaining weight, actually is getting chubby, she sounds different, genuinely displeased when she says she is fat... and I can't help but smile.
sweet poetic justice.
But don't think that this means I can slack off!
Nope, because she is not slacking either, she just told me today "but it is okay because I am doing something about it. Xxxxx offered me a smoothie today and I said no."
So I am just going to continue this fast as long as it takes and work out I don't give a flying fuck if it makes me pass out or if 'it is bad for you' to work out whilst fasting
I will beat her
and finally be the skinny sister for once
Nothing better worse for an ED than good old fashion jealousy and rivalry
Lol. I can TOTALLY understand you hun. This post actually reminded me of a friend whom I met in university. In our freshman year, I was the 'skinny friend', while she was the one who was chubby and was always trying to lose weight without a success. And last year, I put on a looooooot of weight during the holidays, went back to uni feeling gross and fat, and my friend came back SLIM and so pretty! I remember feeling so frustrated and jealous. And I bet that's how your sister feels right now xD
ReplyDeleteNow I am back to being skinny again, and my friend has regained the weight she had once lost. But who knows what's gonna happen in future?.... Weight always fluctuates.... It's just sad, really. Even though we are close friends, there is always this unspoken battle(?) between us. It's like we are constantly having a competition on who's thinner/prettier/etc. It's childish and selfish, but I guess that is women nature.