Cellulite?

The very thing, the very freaking thing that had triggered my sisters eating disorder was when my sister was in the car with either her dad or mine, can't remember, and he said something about her having "dimples" in her legs.

Then just this morning, I am on the phone with my sister and in the kitchen sitting on one of the bar stools with my legs crossed and she goes:

Mum: "Psh" (noise to get my attention)

Mum: *smile* "Feel down here, put your hand on your thigh."

Me: "....?"

Mum: "Do you feel that? Cellulite, you're only 16, you can't be having cellulite!" 

Me: "....." *walks to room*

Mum: "Oh don't get mad, even S******* (my sister) has cellulite!"

She says that...when I am fasting, there is not much I can do past not eating except not drinking water either, it is like she thrives in this, she her self is fat, way fatter than I, and has cellulite all over. It frustrates me to no end, what do you want from me? I already have the eating disorder, I am just sorry I am not even good enough at that for you. 

My day

So started my fast last night at 9:30pm

and decided to stay in bed and sleep all day until 9:30pm tonight for obvious reasons of my not wanting to get any funny ideas.

BUT WAIT

At 2:00pm my father unlocks my door with a toothpick and waltz's in with a carton of half a cheese steak sandwich, the entire bottom filled with fries and one medium sized fried shrimp. 

It was only half the sandwich: 301

and the shrimp: 64

cookie: 160 (post-binge guilt "Might as well go all the way")

Total: 525

sigh, I can't wait to move out to starve in peace!

I restarted the fast as of 3:30pm 

Okay..

I just would like everyone to know:

I am definitely not an angry, raving, sociopath here in the real world! 

I am actually pretty calm and rather shy and have a guilt complex over anything and everything 

My bouts of anger on here are purely that of a teenage tantrum and nothing more...

I did a no-no with my mother tonight, we bought...PIZZA

Type:

Regular cheese

Garlic bread 14" (large) 

Alfredo sauce instead of red

Toppings:

>provolone 

> Philly steak

>Spinach

and a side of garlic and butter bread bites....

I had 2 (or 3?) slices so about 600-900 calories....

And earlier today I had a fruity smoothie homemade and that was probably about mm 210 but all of the fruit used promotes weight loss and are fiber and natural laxatives--SO, that was basically an okay-zone food for me. 

I will have no pizza tomorrow, and try to throw out 1-2 slices a day until it is gone