Ugh

I feel so disgusting after I eat, so impure! I hate it so much, I want it gone, I hate it, I hate every cell from my head to my feet, I hate that I am human and have to eat. I wish I could just wither away to nothing, that is all I want....


Why can't I starve without binging?

Burger patty: 320

Cheese: 170

Crackers: (7): 98

Soup: 70 calories

Total: 658

658 bloody calories, disgusting. 

I feel like my mind is slipping from me, it is all I ever think about anymore,

I don't want help, I don't want to go to the clinic, I want to starve and die 

Hospitalization

That is right, no mistake in the title--

It was almost as if all the air had been sucked from my lungs, my entire world little more than the fragile mirror I shattered a few months back. It was when I decided I was going to admit myself that things began to get ugly in my mind.

I told my sister I was ready, I wanted help--

And so on Wednesday, 1 May

I will go to my life group--tell this lady, with the help of my sister, that I want to be admitted. 

Pale Thinspo