Finally!

FINALLY

I broke my plateau, because I'm water fasting, and no way you can't lose doing that

I'm 139.8 

I'm finally in the 130s so onward and downward I'm going to keep fasting I am so pleased that I am losing again and have reached a new low weight in .. well a really, really long time.

Day 2 of 7 here we go

*taps mic* Hello?

140.0

I have been jumping back and forth from 140.7 and 141.0 for the past 3 days and I am just about to pull my hair out I am so ready to be in the 130s and making progress again   --

 plateaus suck, S-U-C-K, suck. 

I realize I have been here before, and yes, it has, embarrassingly, taken me this long (about 1 or 4 years?) to get BACK here. 

Because no matter how much I starved, I still struggled with binges -- luckily I no longer have that problem and it has only taken me 6 weeks to drop from 151.2 to 140.0 

...

Ah sweet bliss, I am finally making and seeing small amounts of progress .. a small reward from my seemingly endless suffering. 

No idea how much damage I have done to my body or metabolism! Which is what makes the weight loss (or lack, thereof) so infuriating for me. 

I just hope I don't jinx anything and it keeps falling off. 

30 Jan

I know no one wants me to delete this blog, so I won't, but I feel kind of weighed down by it so I created another one strictly for Accountability; of which I will make public in a week or so.

I update it much more often, almost daily, and there will be no personal rants there; mainly it will focus on the diets that I am on at any point in time, and not tips, thinspo or random new diets I find.

The reason I'm reluctant to make it public is because it documents my current weight and I will be posting body checks there at the end of each diet... 

So if you're interested I'll be posting the link soon, and after that I will avoid posting here